Im stuck in the middle..

They had a lil argue over car and money and im stuck in the middle. I wanna said it to both of them but I only told him the truth and its not what she said, "its totally me!Face it maturely, u know very well how i deal with people and u. I didnt have the right time to confront with u as i dont want to caught u off guard..both are hot heads! Dealing with both of u are tough as u 2 are special to me. U wont listen from me and u couldnt accept it..theres must be something coz true friends and love accept me the way I am as I have flaws just like others. So stop being so immature and selfish! Both of your actions showed that u both dont appreciate friends and each other. I dont know whether u change recently and why? or thats just who u really are after all.. I seriously dont know.. but I do know, your my friend and it hurts a lot.

A week of Journ & Psycho..

(27th september-3rd October) I went back to Malacca with my gf and not by bus as it is much easier than have to go to Bkt Jalil as they change the terminal at Pudu for this festive season. Plus, its been 12 days I havent meet Naqy and she really missed me and I missed her too. We went DP before entered UiTM back because she wanna find her shoes! But sadly it was closed already and they(Nqy & Tra) thinked it open till midnight on festive season. We had McD for dinner and as soon as I got back.. I unpack my stuff and went to Taki's room to do my part of CTU assignment and that is doing slide show for Monday presentation. We slept at 3am and meet up in the CTU class, we did well. In photo class, we will have to submit our 7pixs by next week and Im kinda have some pixs but only two were approved! Thats suck! Our graphic class was cancelled and its true as predicted by Sob..hahaha.. I went back to sleep and wake up at 8pm. I do my journ and it was moderate-easy! Nothing much as we need to compile it and follow the format that Ms Rossalynn gave.

We meet her up at noon as Graphic class cancelled again and we did practice on BEL past year question. We need to adjust our font and citation. Well, in journ class was boring enough and I was sleepy. In 'koko', we just need to do on speech critique based on our video that we have. Naqy and her collegues went to Bangsar as her team havent done interview yet. I continue my journ with others at night and Nqy's car was out of fuel at Kelemak, maybe she forgot or having fun talking in the car or dont know laa..but she told me that they thought they will make it to petrol station at Kelemak. Aiman helped them out and they got back safely. It didnt bother me much as we were focusing on journ and she got friends to look out for her. Nqy was busy doing Psycho as they need to submit tomorrow and we too need to submit our journ as we have the same lecturer.

We didnt have journ class that noon but we still have to wake up that morning to print out our journ adn as we fin print, we were happy to submit in but Ms was there! She checked out our work and we need to do correction on citation and references. I re-correct it in BEL class and submit it again for the last time and our format mark was 8.5/9 and I was happy about it becasue we have been moving around and outside of UiTM. We had Psycho class and we need to submit it on this Friday. We rest a lil bit but we still need to work on. That night we watched Fight Club and it was fun and interesting.

The next morning, I do some research on it and by evening got the info. We had BEL and PR class that evening. 8 of my classmates got they letter published in newspaper but mine was seasonal story about Ramadhan and it was in the past. I went pasar with my gf but not fully as she sticked with Nad and I went meet up Ashman as he asked lecturers listname. At night as usual doing my work and still have time to read HP. I fin doing with format, table content and page numbering.

That morning, I woke up at 9am and I was suppose to meet up with Taki and Sob but Sob was still asleep and Taki was out with Waqie and "SN" at Mak Jan and McD..huhu. Sob and I went to sunshine to print the psycho thingy. I had to stop by to meet up with my gf as I want to borrow money with her as we dont have money! Taki did arrived but we were more to being sarcastic with him, especially Sob..hahaha. We sent to Ms Hanem's room and thought wanna meet up with Mr Hakemi regarding on our 7 pixs. I rest till Nqy fin with her class that evening and we went back to home, Tra and Qis followed as well. We fin sent them all back and Nqy slept at my BFF, Mera's house.

We had breakfast at Bidayah Bistro.. a mamak stall beside Aru that I always loiter..we had roti telur bawang and it was good!! I bring my gf home as I want to drop my stuff and my dirty clothes for washing. She met my mum and dad.. she was fine and gracefully talk with my mum..well my mum talks a lot. We leave a.s.a.p. as I dont want my mum to ask further more. We pick up Mera and Phesza soon after we had to braya Yus's house! We ate again but why not.. after done with Yus, then Izati's house.. you can tell whats going on if you went braya right?? Done with raya, we went shooting at JJ AU Keramat. My storyboard is simple, the sotry of two bestfriends that live normally as other teenagers but there is a twist where..bla..bla..bla.. till night still shoot at Mera's house and I'll tell you later I have done editing it.k

Hmm..Fast track??

Well, at 1st I was very interested with this opportunity but after hearing the speech, it makes me thinking more and more over it. There are pros and cons and Aishah told me that there is risk that a person should consider whether you are ready or not to take that challenge. Since that, I have giving some thought over it and hearing from my own Coordinator and KOMED advisor’s opinion.. I will not be taking short-course! I want to finish my diploma and learn more. When you enter degree, you will have to take major media such as PR, Broadcasting, Journalism, Publishing, Advertising, Interpersonal, Management, and Practitioner. Im planning to take BROADCASTING as my dream is to be a VJ or DJ.. well its a dream that help me got in UiTM and along the way of my study. Since in got in UiTM, theres another course that attract me.. PUBLIC RELATIONS. It’s fun and challenging course and tough work too.. long story about it but I’ll tell ‘you’ later about it. Im still in part 3 and I can still learn publishing, broadcasting, video-making and more! Im also planning to further my degree at London(at 1st) but now NY,US! But it seem that it is impossible and I have to find other alternatives to get it..maybe I can pursue it during master?? There is more that ‘you’ can learn and its up to others to pursue it. However, my friends that want to take on fast track have their set up plans after degree..they can get job easily through ‘connection’ or have a job standby on the line. Although my friends told me to ask help from my mom, but I don’t want to it as I want to achieve it myself, with my own hard work! I want to be recognize by my own way! I do realize that I don’t have the look,charm and the it thing! But I do got the X-factor! Maybe have to work on my English more.. Just ‘you’ wait and see!

To love all of u..

Dear love,
I hate it when u being cute,
I hate it when u being pampered,
I even hate it when u act like a baby,
It makes me want to kiss u,
I hate it when i argue with u,
I hate it when u r sometimes right,
I hate it when i make u sulks,
Even worse when i make u cry,
I hate it when my ego screw me up,
I hate it when you’re the 1 who being hurt,
But the mostly i hate is that u love me no matter what.


Dear friends,
I hate it d way i treat my friends,
I hate it when i dun have time with them,
I hate it when i dun share,
Even sucks when i dont know whats up with them,
I hate it when they ditch me,
I hate it when they having fun without me,
But the true is I hate it when u are not around me,
As I really damn miss u all so much!


Dear bff,
I know it’s wrong to mock over your expression,
I do realize it can be hurt,
But now im seeking forgiveness,
So we can get along,
I will always keep that in mind,
To learn to never do it,
It does sound impossible,
But if i try to learn from it,
Maybe i could prevent it,
I know it’s hard for u to say sorry,
But that’s who u are,
Knowing u over these time,
Make me feel have known u a long time,
But the truth is,
There is more than meets the eyes,
Secrets & dark past,
We all do have it,
But more will be revealed,
And soon will be discovered,
Let time decide it,
And we choose it.

Hepy Eid 09!

Hepi Eid! Maaf zahir & batin! Eat up all 'you' can, cause 'you' know there's nothing better than raya food! Hope 'you' all enjoy raya as much as I will. If I have time to spare, lets get together and gain a lots of weight!hahaha..

IM SORIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!

IM SORI BABY! I KNOW I HAVE HURT U A LOT & I DIDNT MEAN TO HURT U.. I'LL TRY MY VERY BEST TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER OF OUR RELATIONSHIP.. I HOPE U GV ME THE CHANCE TO MAKE IT BETTET THAN BEFORE..U R 1 OF THE PERSON THAT VERY PATIENT WITH MY INADEQUATE-SELF..

My gf tried to wake me up by calling me about 50times(HOTLINK)+20times(CELCOM) as we planned to go to bazaar together..but I was unconscious..very,very dead! She did texted me with piss off msgs but I totally understand.. What I;m trying to say is Im glad that I have her as my love of my life as she is very..very patince person. How often 'you' see a person willingly to call 'you' a lot of time to wake 'you' up, to reach 'you', and so on..?? So if 'you' have this kind of person in your life, dont make he/she feel UNAPPRECIATE.

I will always LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER.

got it?

It has been how long again?? oh! yeah.. It has been 2 weeks since the last time I post something. I have been bz especially at night doing my assignments.. a lot of them gotta submit before raya! Im so preoccupied.. tired, tension, got issues with.. and much more negative things get into my head! But I have been trying to be positive all the time and thats good enough..well thats all for now. i'll post my older ones later when i'm free.k