My fault..

Im have been too focusing to my assignment, KOMED and work till I neglect my girl and close friends. I didnt realize there are problems that they have or been through and I wasnt there for them. I push my self and make time to spend time with them as I feel they need me. I feel the bad aura surrounding them with the new conflict over car and money but it soon settled with being open. Im happy for them but Im disappointed with myself as I wasnt there for them if they have problems and it started when my friend cried and I soon realize that Im not a good friend coz my cried friend didnt fully shared feelings. I understand as its been a long time I have really been talking, sharing, gathering and more till make my friend feel dont want to share. It does hurt but friend does have the right to keep it. Im so sorry I havent been there for u.

Plus, with u planning with going fast track, already makes me feel that i have slowly losing u as I know it will not be the same without u. I noticed u kinda have been avoiding me or maybe I over reacting but I did the same too with making myself busy and slowly apart from u coz i dont want to get hurt knowing time will soon pass and will be end of this semester.

Maybe it my fate and test from god as I have been losing friends..best and close friends. Before this, every 2 years, my family will move out from here to there and many more. Luckily, I stayed at KL since form2 till now and since that, I have been afraid of making close friends as I know, eventually set apart when the time comes.

Its a lie if I said that im prepared for it bcoz Im afraid of it but Im still trying to be strong.