I waste my time and too much thinking,,

We start revising psycho after lunch at cafe. I did waste a lot of my time with this & that while others are focusing. Im not the way im use to, maybe its a good & bad thing but im still me. I did feel neglected and terasa with my girl but she needs my support, its not about me. They got spotted & hints from Amirul and really happy about it. I dont rely much on it.

We walk half around the tasek late evening. We didnt talk much & had dinner near Masjid Tanah. We ride with Kulap. Why? We walk. I dont really favor having her car here but I do help to park it & drive it somewhere near.
I had Mee Hoon Tom Yam putih. I got back with full stomach & took a lil time to revise back.

I slept at 1am and woke at 5am. It was Monday and Psycho exam was a couple of hours away. We went to below lib at 7am & I had time to revise the important info. Pak Guard was at Dewan Bendahara & with my a lil long hair will get notice but not! I meet up with him that morning & didnt get to say anything, even good luck as my head was focusing on exam. Im horrible friend, sorry.

Went to the exam hall with the hope that I can be calm and ready for it.

BEL? W508? NO WATER?!

I didnt do any reading but did some revising on references as it is important. Remember myself bout citation and references. I wore Baju Melayu on that friday. That morning wasnt a good start as she was late but cant expect more as just follow the flow. We had a lil argue but I pujuk blk laa kn..

BEL was fine and no pressure, i did my best. Sat down with Aishah & Aznam and we talked a lil bit over BEL. Aishah was frustrated as she didnt do references and that makes her down the whole day.

I went meet up with my girl and her friends at LL, my fren wasnt around, maybe got back and sleep as usual. Ask my fren for lunch but tired.. so we went 50cent. My fren went back that day to get his car.

I went back to KL the next day for a couple of hours to buy my and her new phone. Eventually, she gets want she wants.. SE W508..at 1st W890i but out of stock. I have been reading psycho from thursday and still read it in the bus while back home. Before I went back, I didnt bath as theres no water at my college and I helped out Dhiya & Ashman with KOMED shirt.

I didnt rest & bath. My girl, Nad, Qis & me stay below lib till night & had dinner at Mak Jan but no nasi lemak lorh! I always favor nasi lemak here. I ate mee hoon goreng instead.A lil water after I got back to college, it took me nearly an hour to feel satisty over the water.

Her car..

Well..I fin with my Psycho exam, 3 more papers to go. Yippi! Walk to cafe for lunch..I had potato & squid and large limau ais drink. Again, my fren was asleep when I ask for lunch. Later tonight hang out at cafe. After lunch, we went to the car & office to settle the fine on the car. We went out to AG, photostat CTU book as we lost ours.

She was very cold with me driving her car on the real road. She said, "U leh x bwk keta i elok2, keta i nie. kalo keta org lain pn sme gak auw.". Well, i learn from it although I dont have my own car.k

Successfull Dean List Award & Raya Dinner

After I been busy for the whole week..on weekend were also not an exception. Saturday(17nov)I had breakfast with my girl as it was her birthday and at 10.30am, I have meeting and rehearsal with KOMED at pdg kawad. She did cried the day before as she should be at home and celebrating with her friends but her mom said she will be coming. I had to leave at noon to home and pick up my stuff and I did get time to bought her present as I have to waited for my lil bro who accidentally brought along my broadband to my uncle house at BJ! I bought her a cow moo photo frame, nothing much can do lorh. Naqy's mom didnt came to see her and it make her more sad with me being not around. I feel so guilty but I cant do nothin. She went out to take some pixs for her 7 pixs. Speaking for 7 pixs, I did submit a lil late but i did well and my story board was a success with the help of my girl, Zul and Mera. Thanx and love you all! Meet up with Iris in the bus and we talk till reached UiTM. I didnt stop yet, I have to stop by and help a lil bit with the door gift. Give a talk to the performer and went back to rest.

Sun(18nov) I had some errant to be done till 4pm. I help all that I can till 7pm. I was exhausted all ready but still hanging on. Some KOMED with me went to the event at 8pm!huhu.. my girl came with others and I was so happy they came to support but a friend of mine didnt came and I was really surprised but cant do much as I was busy but things go smoothly and we fin at 1am. But the next morning got stomachache and not only but everyone! We have to report it and others posted it on FB. Have to brief in post-mortem.

9 months..

Not only my friend got hurt but also my girl. She feels I didnt gv her any attention or care bout her or treat her well. I should be more concern and sensitive as I try not to make anyone especially my girl.

we have been up and down and argue almost everyday over little things..so it is important to communicate with your partner whatever it is..even the small details can be serious. We try to complete each other and not try to 'perli' each other to 'tegur' ones fault.hehehe

Neway, we have been together 9 months and a lot have happen along the way. HAPPY 9th MONTH ANNIVERSARY syg!! We still have long way to go but chill. xp

I Love U the way you are..no matter what flaws you have..i have it too. xD

Now I know the feeling..

Well after raya holz, Im packed up with journ and psycho assignment! Then with my 1st time involvement with Dean list award ceremony and raya dinner event have lessen my time with myself and with others too. I and Aishah were bz tfor the whole week with fund raising, raya money collection, publisity and logistic and not to forget protocol got my head stick with event and assigments!

Theres 1 day where we and my gf with her gfs went to UHTrading to make more order after we got "warning" from Mdm Wan in our last meeting and we learn from our mistake. Back to the story, I and Aishah was exhausted and hungry bcoz have been calling and moving around campus collecting raya dinner money, hanging up bunting and banner! So after Aishah done dealin with tauke, we went to 7E and bought Maggi cup. WE ATE MAGGI in front of that shop like two teenagers that are poor and abandon!

Now we know hows previous KOMED feels while I saying things bout them!hehehe and now myself a KOMED.huhuhu

My fault..

Im have been too focusing to my assignment, KOMED and work till I neglect my girl and close friends. I didnt realize there are problems that they have or been through and I wasnt there for them. I push my self and make time to spend time with them as I feel they need me. I feel the bad aura surrounding them with the new conflict over car and money but it soon settled with being open. Im happy for them but Im disappointed with myself as I wasnt there for them if they have problems and it started when my friend cried and I soon realize that Im not a good friend coz my cried friend didnt fully shared feelings. I understand as its been a long time I have really been talking, sharing, gathering and more till make my friend feel dont want to share. It does hurt but friend does have the right to keep it. Im so sorry I havent been there for u.

Plus, with u planning with going fast track, already makes me feel that i have slowly losing u as I know it will not be the same without u. I noticed u kinda have been avoiding me or maybe I over reacting but I did the same too with making myself busy and slowly apart from u coz i dont want to get hurt knowing time will soon pass and will be end of this semester.

Maybe it my fate and test from god as I have been losing friends..best and close friends. Before this, every 2 years, my family will move out from here to there and many more. Luckily, I stayed at KL since form2 till now and since that, I have been afraid of making close friends as I know, eventually set apart when the time comes.

Its a lie if I said that im prepared for it bcoz Im afraid of it but Im still trying to be strong.