A week full of tired+ dehydration!

Wao! not enough sleep & I got class from 8.30am to 5.20pm! I did push myself to wake up early, even Taki & Sob are surprised. Usually I will rush in Taki's car with my unbuttoned shirt but still I soon rememberd that Ms Shida will have quizes in the morning! Sob wasnt in as he was sending Sha to MC but he was caught by miss when she pass by sob early that morning!haha.kantoi! I wasnt feeling well aftr morning class & got scold by mdm Wan for being late. :( Advert class as usual makes me already thinking of bed! I wasnt in the mood for dinner as well. I got fever on monday night & we got modern issues presentation to finish up. My girl arrived at 10pm but she was way too tired & fall asleep. I slept that night at 4am.

My fever cooled down a lil bit but I went accompany Aishah to HEP for our Induction proposal checking. Some error in calculation of budget & error of maintainence.Aishah & I were busy with checking an error. In the evening, arranging the slides & brief the teamates. 7 peoples are too much in a group just for presentation with no report! Meeting with KOMED at night will be solving our probs. It was also Sob 1st time join KOMED's meeting since he is the new Exco Kerohanian. New family!!Yay! Fever & cold were critical but Im still on the move, cant rest fully yet!

Eco class was boring but new repeaters came in the class. Ms Khaizi always checked out our homework! Like school much?! No homework but we have publication class that make us fin the bzns card. I was doing on lounge-night club bzns card. Our lect are so soft spoken until I cant focused on him not more than 5minutes! Some girls says he is like Farid Kamil but soft version. not pondan laa!! Taki, Sob & I didnt went to lunch and waited for teammates to be brief in but we have to do it in class as it took an amount of time to get in their head! The only ones who actually contribute, me, Sob, Taki & Fika! The other 3 have-a-free-ride! It doesnt matter now. At the time groups are presenting, Raz's grandpa past away & he straight went back to Penang. Takziah & Al-Fatihah. Burden was over for that day. The night isnt over. We KOMED have to meet up with pt1 & pt2. Half went on pt1 & half went on pt2. I got pt1, well..I arranged it as I want to see the what freshies got!Obviously, some of they are older than us & being a true masscomers..MENCAPAP! 1 of the pt1 palyed eyes with Aishah..literally where we KOMED can see it! They are so gonna feel the fun & not-so-much-fun of masscomm!huhu

We ran under the rain to eco class & more repeaters joined in. We 3 are blank with the advance studies & totally havent master the basic! Publication was the same. We head out to print & lunch at Under-the-Tree, AG. Didnt joined the others at Kelemak as want to be else where than Kelemak! Heavy downpour that make us waiting to slow down. I got scolded by mak cik kolej that accused me of peeking in Aishah's room but actually I was sending reports to her as she didnt come out. Kecoh tul mak cik kolej! Pasar was the usual as cafe are closed & freshies still havent asked for signature.Well, dont care..I got KOMED photoshoot that night for groupies! Sob borrowed his jr's car & Aishah loves old school car.Old school lovers. I loves the VW van that I always dream of..the back of the van can be my room.hahaha

Nothing with just doing my laundry & watching gundam till the evening. Prof drop by the room as he has plan with Qina. I was more to waiting for going back & overnight with azrul, syafiq, nizar, afiq sam, izzy, hunny, farah & atthiya. We had dinner, watched separate movie & celeb Azrul bday. Hun makes him cupcakes and we went to PD. Walk down the beach & play UNO stacko. Well, my bus was at 8.30 am to KL, to meet with my girl. xD

2nd week in UiTM

It is so hard that I have to be so tough at the same time having to be fair with others. Im so sad and disappointed with myself that I can’t get to her.. I mean her heart. Its like theres a barrier that keeping me from reaching her heart. I cant heart to heart with her. I don’t know what going on with her. She keeps saying that she is fine. Well, it hurts a lot that knowing yourself aren’t reliable. It is killing me softly...

With friends, I’m split into two..between T & S and the A’s. I divide time with them but still there’s something wrong.. it doesn’t feel right. I miss my best friend & close friends that have gone to degree. I don’t have anyone to talk to..even my girl doesn’t share with me, well not literally I mean.. still I feel lonely.

I was so boring in the weekend with nothing to do but homework & make myself bz with other things..watching gundam, bof, gg, & movies.Argh! Now i felt totally nothing!I can just wait & wait..till I find what I truly want. I do know what I want but Im afraid I'll get hurt..but it even hurt when I dont do it. I'll regret everytime I never done it in the 1st place. I'll step up my guts but next weekend laa..

From Downfall to Resolution

Accept what you must & change what you can,
think before you act & not regret any moment of carelessness,
appreciate what you have & the wonderful feeling you are,
enjoy the simple pleasure of life in nature & in people,
forgive & learn from mistakes & forget the past,
learn & discover new experiences & table life as an adventure, dream & make plans for your future,
go for what you want!

This is what I need to do & will be in the 2010. Forgive me if I done anything wrong to you all & I'm sorry if I dont care about you anymore afterwards because the pain is too much too bare.

Crack in 2010

Well new year.. my heart was broke by her. Cant stand being hurt..people that came into my life are slowly gone. I miss them very much. I try to scream but no voice get out..no sound be reach..nobody except me. Where were you all when I need you? You supposed to be my best friend! Only time can revive me. I'll be strong like before but dont expect me to be the same like you know me before.