Principles

Since the first week of my semester break till now, the 7th week..I manage to restrain myself from contacting her. Its tough, very very tough. Everyday was pain but i'll endure & wait for the right time. I really need to do this, after her friend told me to stay away from her & showed me that she felt annoyed & she prefer to ignore me. Well, its clear that she is protected by loved ones. I thought if I could bbm you as usual, i could share a bit of my expressions & feelings. But it seem you is shutting me out totally. You said you want me to be your friend, I tried but its you who cant. You even use the word 'ex' with your friends when it refers to me. It hurts, but i deserve it.

I still dream of her, miss her, care for her but everyday is a challenge. Theres a time when i got her miss call after work during week 6, I call her directly in case she have something important, but she said wrong dialed number. Hearing her voice for 10second was better than nothing. I was happy, although it was for a very short time..it was joy that I havent felt for quite some time. A part of me was lost, i was trying to live a half life after our break up. I did let her go & move on, but a part of her will remain in my heart. Call me a fool, but since i have stick to my principles with not get in touch with her for her sake & her friend notice, now one of my principles is she will be first & last. This is a punishment for me..love is a punishment from heaven, with that I'll endure & wait. Dont care what others will say & think. If I cant keep my principles & promises, then I'm no good & havent change for better. I have to change, if not, i'll live in regret.

Work

Miss typing random things, feeling & thoughts. Well, where to start..I did a plan where I will holiday for a month & work for 3 months. At first, I was planning to have my 2 weeks holiday & at the same time get a job but it seem it took me a bout a month to get a job. I went a lot of places & finally i got a job from SuperStar Karaoke at Wangsa Walk. I got a call at 1.30am on the day i start working. 3 days was tiring, working as steward or runner i would say, i did manage to catch up quickly. By the end of week 2, I was already chosen to be in-charge for 2 weeks & my customer service was superb compare to the other male staff, that what my manger said. Now its already week 3. Im so hoping to be off from the in-charge duty as soon as possible. The others seniors from night shift was kinda dislike? with my good performance or I didnt have the right to be in charged after just start working for 2 weeks I guess. Im planning to earn as much as possible & even do OT. What I'm so excited now is there will be an Annual Staff Dinner on 8th August 2011 & the prize for the lucky draw are Ipad2 & Iphone4!! I was like..wanna scream during the briefing. But theres all together 80 staff from Superstar Wangsa Walk & Superstar Alamanda. So among that 80 peeps, there will be 1 who will get Ipad2 & 1 will get Iphone4. Hope my luck doesnt run out during that day.haha. Oh, didnt i mention..I work from 10.30am-7.30pm & then briefing(postmortem) at 8pm-9pm. if I do OT, continue from 9pm-2.30am. TOTAL EXHAUSTED! But i like working there so far, got new friends & learn to be discipline & responsible. I hope the coming month will be better as well.