Things change, I've changed.

Wao! Its been long since I havent updated my blog. A lot had happens from my semester break till I got back in UiTM. Now Im kinda stop contact with my gf for 3 days starting Friday till Sunday as she had made me mad. Well, she went out to MMU so sudden at 9pm and I didnt know her class was cancelled. She rather skipped her college's meeting and go out. She did asked me to follow her but it was last minute and I dont want to stopped and slowed her down to MMU, so I let her go with my confused and mad feeling! I switch off my handphone once she texted me she had reached MMU in a fast time. I texted her not to SMS,call or even meet me up cause I was pissed off. I know she has her own car and will be excited to go anywhere with it.

The last time I was pissed off was during my 2nd semester break when I found out my bestfriend didnt texted me but instead texted my gf during holidays. Dont get me wrong, there another story behind it but I think it is best talk between ourselves. From that moment, I stopped texting him and what ever SMS he sent, I didnt had a looked at it and I delete it immediately. Im doing the same thing to my gf now. U can say that Im being harsh and mean but I dont give a damn what U said cause U are not me! When I got back in UiTM, I treat him as usually as he is still my friend but Im not sure we can be like always.. let time decide it. As long as there no trust and honest between us.. I cant say furthermore.

So I spent my holidays alone at Genting for 3 days to calm down and being positive. Plus I do had tons of fun with my other bestfriends, close friends and new friend at Genting, movies, bowling, swam at river, accident and more! During that time, I have been thinking whats wrong with what I had done and U know what?I dont blame him at all but I really dissappointed with him. He may not know about this as I kept it to myself but now 'you' know.

Well, back to my gf story, we do had datings during semester break and on the 1st day of class we skipped to DP . We did had fun and happy time but I not in the mood to talk about it with her and so Im giving her space and for myself to think over all we had done wrong. We are just human after all and I do forgive her mistake..it just hurt my heart as Im just hoping she gave me the same commitment that she asked from me from last semester. I wrote a letter to her and the last the thing I said is " I have a lot of things to say to U but Im afraid it is doesnt worth it and at the end all will be blame on me.".

I think by doing that to her, I wont 'sound' her and make my heart more miserable. Still I know she is sad and really sorry about it but give it time. She has the right to go where ever she wants to and Im not stopping her anymore. Now, I dont mind if she is not telling me what ever she's doing and Im not saying that I dont care or dont love her but I dont want her to think that Im being controlling or what so ever. She wants her space, Im giving her one.

Feuww! Now Im done with that, well my semester break wasnt that bad. I had tons of fun with my friends and 'you' all can watch it at my myspace in album 'Frenzines'. Hope 'you' enjoy it. k