Short expression

This has been really really tough semester for me. Being multitasking, push yourself to the limit, mentally trying to be optimistic. People don't understand what we did to get all that they need. It's tough & relying on us was too much. We were trying our best. We did & it was a success. YMC will be a memory that taught me tough-rough situation in work-life. However, right after our event, assignment got to start back. Interviews, findings, compiling. I was pushing my mates with research. On my viva, I did the most stupid mistake that I ever done in my presentation. I put the unapproved RORQ in the slide. That was a truly shit happens. God open my eyes that I need to be more conscious & prepare. I deserve it..all of it.

Enough bout YMC & research. This is what i want to express. I was looking forward to see her after a long time i guess since she was avoiding me. She came to YMC. The awkward part is I met her in front of the toilet entrance. What a coincidence but I didn't talk, just merely say hi..after a few step, she called & ask me where am I going. I was so happy that time as if I want to hug her but again, its impossible. I was energize when I saw her. Since then, most of my dream there will be her..most of the dream that i tried to remember when I woke up, I just don't remember, but I know she was there because when I suddenly wake up, I realize I was in tears. Don't know where I was happy in tears or just sad. This morning, I remember my dream. I was at the airport & in front of me, there she was hugging her friends with her backpack on. I'm guessing she is going abroad. Lastly, she came & hug me tightly. As if i could smell her channel perfume, her warmth..she then whisper "I still love you, really do..". Again, I woke up with tears. I sat on my bed for a while & thinking, was that dream just showing my heart desire that i want her to say that or what God is trying to tell me that although she left me, she still love you or don't think too much, just let it be. Still running in my mind. Whatever it is, I'll be back.

This 4 month of semester break or summer break, I've been planning to work & swimming to loss weight & get fit. There's a lot of things that I wanna buy & with the RM500 that I won from the TV program, I'll gonna use for holiday!!! Happy holidays everyone. :D